"e;You're immune to insecurity, right? You have the odd moment, sure, but it's other people that let doubt take them over, that endlessly analyse their relationships and replay their glories and flaws, not you... right? You'd never be like me, Ken, at this moment lying awake sick to my stomach, in thrall to the accusation that my wife, Lol, is having an affair with a r@pist. The r@pist is an everyman family-man who flounders between the high of sexual assault and the low of self-loathing. To escape his urges he buries himself in work, drink, drugs, and sex, but his is a lifelong search for the woman who will understand him, love him anyway, and cure him of the need to r@pe. The slander's gnawing at me and it's so bloody powerful. Could you, even stable normal upstanding you, resist entertaining my unspeakable thoughts? Could you resist the fear that he might actually be telling the truth?My name is Ken and I have my... doubts."e;So reads the cover of Slander & Doubt, the most confronting book you will ever read. A book to tear your insides out. What will hit you so hard? Well, if you're a man you'll be angry with Ken, R, T, N; deeply so because these extreme characters share 99% of their emotional DNA with you. The line between civilized and barbaric is uncomfortably thin, awfully so. If we all gave vent to our hidden dark voices and vices wellAnd if you're a woman? This is about as uncomfortable a read as you can get. The drama is around slander but the context for that drama is r@pe, and it doesn't pull any punches. I want women to read this book, many of my beta readers have been women and they've all got something out of it. But to warn you in advance, it'll be a rough ride. All my beta readers complimented the work's style and elegance, and the journey it took them on. But I think I've succeeded in being brutally thought-provoking, even traumatizing. If you're looking for a gentle airport read, a little light something to while away the time, then this is not the book for you. All that said, I hope it's worth it. Follow the sections of this site to find out a little more about why I wrote this work and why I think it's important. Because I do think it's important, too important to shy away from. The inspiration for the book has been with me for over twenty years, from when I worked as a volunteer helping women in crises and their families. A r@pe counsellor came to speak to us, and she spoke frankly and honestly about r@pe and its affects. One statement in particular was very confronting for the teenage me, that all men have the capability and latent urge to r@pe. I have written this book about two men, one of whom is a r@pist and the other is the husband of one of his victims. Sex, violence, sexual violence, drug use, and prostitution are part of this confronting story, and they are necessary and involving elements of the work. I would like to emphasise that neither I, nor my work, condone sexual violence in any way. I hate having to even say that, it should be obvious once I've described the source of this book. But I do need to say which is kinda why it need to be written and you need to read it...
Slander & Doubt